I went home to my parents house last week… it was a six hour drive from here. I always enjoy that drive, although there isn’t much to look at along the way, but, still I get time all to myself to just think. And think I did. I went home for three reasons. One, because I miss my mom a lot, she is my best friend and I never get enough time with her. Two, because I have decided to move back to the the town I grew up in and I was on a quest to find an apartment. Three, to see Stan.
I found an apartment the first day of hunting… it was the very last one I looked at and I really love it. It’s much bigger than where I am now and the rent is much cheaper. I signed a 12 month lease and I am really looking forward to moving into the place I will call home. I am also looking forward to being back in my home town. I never thought that I would ever hear myself utter those words because growing up I always said I could not wait to leave there. But, I miss the comforts of home, now more than ever. I may have a job waiting for me when I get back, if all goes well. It just feels right….. for now.
Mom and I had a great visit too, we are closer than ever and we both need that. We have missed out on a lot of years, not that I regret it, I had a life and family of my own. My ex packed me and the boys up and moved us here when he was hired right out of college. It was all new and exciting at the time. Our boys were so young though and they really never got to experience growing up around extended family the way I did. I was so close to my grandmother. But, my mom has made every effort to see them and spend time with them as much as possible over the years. And I used to drive them down to visit every summer, until they became teenagers that is. Thier father never wanted to go back even though he grew up there as well, his parents still live there and he never visits. They always come here to visit. I think it’s a shame really that he can’t make the effort… and in doing so he has really deprived our children of a relationship with his parents, thier grandparents. I couldn’t exactly justify making them go visit if thier own father wouldn’t. I am hoping that this move will not only benefit me, but, maybe even bring my kids a little closer to thier grandparents, since they will be visiting me during summers and holidays. They are all so grown up now, hopefully its not too late.
I spent a little time with Stan while there. Stan and I know eachother from high school and reconnected recently on Facebook. We see each other from time to time… and soon we are going to be seeing each other a lot more. I wonder if that will change things… sometimes the distance can be so much more exciting and mysterious. He is currently seperated and although I like him a lot, I am moving very slowly and cautiously. I have enough baggage of my own and I really don’t want to be mixed up in someone elses. Besides, I am no where near ready for anything serious with anyone. He’s been a good friend though and I am glad that I will have someone to spend time with while I get settled. He is very sweet, funny, caring, helpful, and fun to be around…. I like that… and need that.
So… anyway, I am moving back home and I am feeling pretty good about it.. hopeful even.
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